Breaking

How pointless

those initial break up

consolation thoughts.

How flooded my brain is with this sort of nonsense

Thinking I’m all they’re thinking of.

Just because I think of them.

No.

You’re not the main character in a film about your break up.

Soon you won’t even be an extra.

But the ego likes to believe silly things like

One day they’ll realise

they made a mistake

I was actually perfect for them all along

Quietly pretending their soul hasn’t moved on

Ignoring everything

I thought was wrong

with us.

That somehow

I am such an important human

That despite all of the failings

individually, together

That brought us here

drove us apart

One day

these will become insignificant

And you will come running through the rain

Screaming

I’ve just remembered

I used to find you attractive

And I still think your keen sense of humour is enchanting

That I think we should forget the shit times

The time that has passed between us

And reunite.

And I will ride triumphant

knowing

I was right

You did

come to your senses

And sure

I am

in retrospect

hypothetically

less sad

10 years ago

knowing future me

can say

I told you so.